Drugs r bad mmmmkay

I completely annihilated myself last night, I'm so ashamed!
& I fell down some stairs & have twisted my ankle
but as my friend just said 'there aint no party like a Lauraclub party'
I think that's supposed to make me feel better...

being woken up at 9am by next door neighbours getting thier new carpet fitted.
im bloody knackered now

having to memorise so much stuff for tomorrow
 

Ummm work and being generally ****ed off. 

well right now i'm majorly worried bout money. i owe my landlord £500+ in rent, i owe my housemates £100+ in bill money, i need to find £50-£150 for a deposit on accomodation for next year, oh yeah and sytupidly i agreed to go to download so i need spending money for that. all of this money needs to materalise by next ****ing week.I am screwed.

i need to wuit my job and get a better paid one (i'm on £4.50 an hour). Even when i work 5/6 days i still don't make enough money. but i'm scared to leave cos i'm scared of applying for new jobs cos i know i dont deal well with rejection, and i don't want to leave cos i am comfortable there and i have friends there. if ileave i lose all of that.


oh and on monday i get to have a nice long talk with my bf its the talk which bascially decide wheather we're staying together or splitting up. so yeah happy times.

and now i'm listening to depressing songs wondering what the ****ing point of life is. i don't like my life much. and yes i know there are people 10x worse off out there and that i'm being selfish and pathetic and my problems aren't real problems in comparison to other peoples but its getting to me. and i dont know what to do anymore.

raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar
i hav no where to stay in london
:o(

Ergh London.

ORIGINAL: xxXMessedUpXxx

well right now i'm majorly worried bout money. i owe my landlord £500+ in rent, i owe my housemates £100+ in bill money, i need to find £50-£150 for a deposit on accomodation for next year, oh yeah and sytupidly i agreed to go to download so i need spending money for that. all of this money needs to materalise by next ****ing week.I am screwed.

i need to wuit my job and get a better paid one (i'm on £4.50 an hour). Even when i work 5/6 days i still don't make enough money. but i'm scared to leave cos i'm scared of applying for new jobs cos i know i dont deal well with rejection, and i don't want to leave cos i am comfortable there and i have friends there. if ileave i lose all of that.


oh and on monday i get to have a nice long talk with my bf its the talk which bascially decide wheather we're staying together or splitting up. so yeah happy times.

and now i'm listening to depressing songs wondering what the ****ing point of life is. i don't like my life much. and yes i know there are people 10x worse off out there and that i'm being selfish and pathetic and my problems aren't real problems in comparison to other peoples but its getting to me. and i dont know what to do anymore.

just coz u dont think its much of a problem comepered to other people dosent mean its not a problem still, if u get me? it still means a lot to you so its somehting u should be able to talk about, the money problem is **** like, and the relationship talk i can completly realat to, me and my gf need one but it seems theres never enough time to get to see eachother face to face and talk about it. it sucks and i hope all goes well for you, but remember even if it dosent, its a weight of your mind. and also most things in life, if you havent worked hard for them, its not usually worth it.

well right now i'm majorly worried bout money. i owe my landlord £500+ in rent, i owe my housemates £100+ in bill money, i need to find £50-£150 for a deposit on accomodation for next year, oh yeah and sytupidly i agreed to go to download so i need spending money for that. all of this money needs to materalise by next ****ing week.I am screwed.

i need to wuit my job and get a better paid one (i'm on £4.50 an hour). Even when i work 5/6 days i still don't make enough money. but i'm scared to leave cos i'm scared of applying for new jobs cos i know i dont deal well with rejection, and i don't want to leave cos i am comfortable there and i have friends there. if ileave i lose all of that.


oh and on monday i get to have a nice long talk with my bf its the talk which bascially decide wheather we're staying together or splitting up. so yeah happy times.

and now i'm listening to depressing songs wondering what the ****ing point of life is. i don't like my life much. and yes i know there are people 10x worse off out there and that i'm being selfish and pathetic and my problems aren't real problems in comparison to other peoples but its getting to me. and i dont know what to do anymore.

ORIGINAL: fry_fishinmypan

raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar
i hav no where to stay in london
:o(

I say for one you've got friends, for two you seem to enjoy your current job, for three you going to ****ing Download!! CHEER UP MAN!
Get an overdraft or get on over to virginmoney.co.uk and get an interest free (for 13 months credit card). I've got £5,000 on one of them f.uckers and im -£450 overdrawn! i'm going camping this weekend, the enemy gig next, i've promised to take my girlfriend for a meal the week after and the last week of the month im camping in dalby forest again to see travis! i'm going to cyprus for 2 weeks in July and then Leeds in August! AND I WANT A MORTGAGE WITH MY GF BY NEXT FEB! HA HA!! Money is an IOU anyway, youve got the rest of your life to settle your debts and pay bills! But only 5 or so youthful years! Use them wisely! Oh and tell your BF to stick his talk and finish him before he ends it! Chancees are he'll not be expecting that! will get a shock think, "**** whats gone on here?" he'll cry and beg for you back! If not he doesnt love you enough to spend the rest of your life together anyway! Move on! Have Fun! SORT IT AAAAWT.

On another note, im off my tits! I got home about 12.30am was up til 1.30 and after dropping pills down the local had to be up for 6.am for work! Im sitting at my desk with a big bad head and i need food and water desperately! going for brekkie! I LOVE YOU ALL!

chrissysemens if i see you at leeds i shall take my trilby off to you for the most awesome relationship advice ever. Oh and ill give you a drink, seems like that would be appreciated more than some random guy taking his hat off

Eeek
I dont think i am quite prepared enough for my exam today.
got till 3pm tho to continue working
 
and then
it will all be over!!!!

see tickets being busy.
pleeeeeease dont say the ****ing maximo park tickets have sold out already grrrrrrr

ORIGINAL: GeordieRyan07

Ergh London.

 
yeah but then again
 
muse....

ORIGINAL: xxXMessedUpXxx

well right now i'm majorly worried bout money. i owe my landlord £500+ in rent, i owe my housemates £100+ in bill money, i need to find £50-£150 for a deposit on accomodation for next year, oh yeah and sytupidly i agreed to go to download so i need spending money for that. all of this money needs to materalise by next ****ing week.I am screwed.

i need to wuit my job and get a better paid one (i'm on £4.50 an hour). Even when i work 5/6 days i still don't make enough money. but i'm scared to leave cos i'm scared of applying for new jobs cos i know i dont deal well with rejection, and i don't want to leave cos i am comfortable there and i have friends there. if ileave i lose all of that.


oh and on monday i get to have a nice long talk with my bf its the talk which bascially decide wheather we're staying together or splitting up. so yeah happy times.

and now i'm listening to depressing songs wondering what the ****ing point of life is. i don't like my life much. and yes i know there are people 10x worse off out there and that i'm being selfish and pathetic and my problems aren't real problems in comparison to other peoples but its getting to me. and i dont know what to do anymore.

 
you could always sell yourself....
 
 
nah i'm kidding
don't do that
 
ermmm
i have no decent advise right now
but
*hugs*
 
katy hugs make everything better....
it's true

HA HA!
Cheers munkyfunk! Durham lad aswell! Nice!!

haha im already 7000 pound in debt. And thats not including my overdraft which is right up to the limit, yet im still buying 60 quids worth of gig tickets today :D

foir once i have money
which is quite nice
not that i have a lot of it
but ah well
and in a week today i finish my exams
so i might then go find myself a job
(y)
might not though.....

ive just given up worrying about money. im gonna be poor for the rest of my life anyway so who cares

i love the fact that (if everything goes according to plan) i'll be on £150,000 a year
:o)
good times...